not-so-dear old long-distance bestie and crush,
crush is a very small word really, for my feelings towards you,
but i could never muster the courage to confess them.
I still have our 3-year-old chats on e-mail,
I give it a read at times,
they still melt my heart,
oh those good old days, I wouldn't trade them for the world!
and I wonder,
how did you change so much?
from such a loving person to a cold-hearted one?
I ask myself,
why? why did you leave? how could you? did I really not mean anything to you?
was it really such a big mistake, that made me lose you forever?
did you really forget all those golden days, just because of that one stupid mistake?
you were the one person I trusted,
the one person I knew who'd never leave me,
the one person I cared for,
the one person I loved,
more than anything else in the world.
I could never imagine it but now I know I can live without you,
and even if you ever decide to come back in my life again,
which you obviously won't,
but if you do,
because I've been doing this since the past 3 years and I've gotten pretty good at it.
I get to know about your life from our old friends
and I couldn't be happier for you,
I hope you'll always be.
I miss you.
an old friend.